Monday, December 2, 2013

My Collar Is Here!

So last Wednesday I decided that I would spend my $25 Amazon giftcard on a new collar. My previous collar, which was actually just a studded choker, is in horrible condition now. I had been eyeing a cute red collar on Amazon that had bone-shaped studs but the reviews for it weren't so great. In the suggestions there was this adorable pink collar with puppy paw studs, I fell in love and so that's the one I went with.

Amazon had said that shipping would take 3-5 business days. I was fine with this because I was gone for Thanksgiving weekend anyways. Out of curiosity on Saturday night, I checked the tracking status and it said it had already been delivered. As you can imagine I was really looking forward to getting home.

I came home today to a package:
 Opened it up and behold!
And here it is worn:
Because of my relationship being a long distance one, I have never officially been collared or had a collaring ceremony. The collar that I've worn for the past few years has been a play collar, just like this one will be, but I wore it on a daily basis by my choice. I plan to wear it daily like a real one but I don't see it as my official collar because Daddy hasn't put it on me to give it that special meaning. We will find another collar in the future when that time comes. :)

Monday, November 25, 2013

We're a Pack Again!

I've been wanting to write a post on this for a while to properly announce this, but haven't really gotten around to it. If you follow my Tumblr, you'll know that Daddy and I are in a triad again. Her name is kitten but you'll see me refer to as "sis" or "sissy" in the future. So without further ado, let me tell you how it happened.

A bit of back story first, when I first met Daddy, He was with another girl (kitten) but explained to me that He is polyamorous. I told Him that although I had never heard of such a thing or understood how it worked, I told Him that I loved Him and was willing to give it a try. I didn't meet kitten until a few months after I started dating Daddy, so at first it was really easy. I didn't really hear about her so I felt like I was the only one. When we met, we instantly got along but that's when we started feeling insecure about each other. We started noticing our flaws and the perks about the other; "No wonder he fell for her. They have so much in common." At first her and I started out as friends but we ended up crushing on each other and eventually dating too. While it wasn't forced that we become partners, it was nice to love two people and be loved by each other. About a year later things fell apart due to some private issues and kitten going on a high dose of anti-depressants.

Daddy and I never really got over the break up. W/we accepted that she could no longer feel love for us but every once in a while W/we would talk about how W/we missed her. I think part of both of U/us remained hopeful about her return. I think I began to drive Daddy nuts when it came to how often I'd cry a bit or whine about her being gone. I had half a mind back in October to message her on Fetlife and talk it out with her but I was afraid of rejection. Actually I think I did send her a message but it was more of a, "Hey, how are you?" kind of message.

On Halloween I logged in to see this:
[10/31/2013 3:10:04 PM] Daddy: So, I have some news for you. I think you'll be happy to hear it.
[10/31/2013 3:10:30 PM] doll: Oh?
[10/31/2013 3:12:15 PM] Daddy: Yeah. Earlier, while you were asleep, I was talking with kitten. The conversation took a nostalgic, then sentimental turn, and in the end, the possibility of her returning to us came up... and she basically said yes.
I was really happy to read this and I was told to welcome her back into the pack but I was a step ahead of him.

This is kitten, she is Daddy's gorgeous pet and my sister-sub. She is the oldest of the three of us; four years older than me and two years older than Daddy. She lives in the UK so we're all long distance (her and Daddy are only an hhour apart so I envy that) but have plans to live together in the future. We've even looked at dream houses online together and it's a lot of fun. Her move will be a little tougher since she has a young daughter and wants to raise her around her family, but we'll make things work one way or another; Daddy has mentioned that we can see during vacations until she can move. She is the realist of us since she's had experience living with a partner, but she's not pessimistic about things. For me she's just like a big sister who gives me advice and helps me stay on the ground. She's such a sweet heart.

We have dates together just like her and Daddy have dates. Ours tend to be movie dates or voice calls over Skype, nothing sexual yet because we're still working our way there... But we've both mentioned to Daddy and each other what we want to do. There are also days where the three of us hang out on Oovoo together and have a big date and it's a lot of fun.

We do still have our issues though but we're all working on it. We're both having to readjust to life as a poly relationship again. We feel jealousy, envy, and insecurity around each other but this time we've agreed to talk it out rather then letting is fester and consume us. I'm most vocal about it but we both feel it. It's going to take us a while to fully adjust and remind ourselves that Daddy loves us both equally but I know it'll happen. Our job is to make everyone happy and make this work better than the last time. We know what went wrong before and we all really want this to work out long term.

With kitten back I feel like we're complete again. That's not to say that I wasn't happy with Daddy while she was gone, because I was and He was happy too... It was just that I had been longing for a girlfriend again. I had gone through a couple play partners (well one was a girlfriend actually) but it wasn't the same as having her a part of our relationship. Part of me still feels that I'm being unfaithful if I have a partner on the side, even if I have permission from Daddy. So this makes me feel better about wanting to play with another girl and falling in love again. There's something about being loved by two people, it makes you feel extra special. In my case, since kitten is my big sister, I feel like I have that role fulfilled and have another best friend.

Saturday, November 16, 2013

Sorry for the lack of updates lately

I’ve been pretty busy with friends lately and when I wasn’t busy, I haven’t had privacy with Daddy or kitten. Thursday was my first time playing with Daddy in almost a week.

I’m going to be out with family for Thanksgiving so this week is my week with my loves before I leave. It sounds like Daddy has some plans for the three of us to play together for the first time, given the opportunity and privacy. I’m really looking forward to this but kitten and I are still very shy about making moves on each other so it’ll be interesting how that plays out. Daddy tells me that she wants me to dominate her at some point. *wink* Also little does Daddy know that I could really go for some funishment spankings in the next few day. 20 tends to be our magical number for that.

I will try to be more active this week with my blog in general instead of just queueing things. I also got some new panties last weekend that I’ve been dying to show off on here. My first g-string! *A*
Have a good weekend everyone.

Monday, October 28, 2013

Sharing is Caring?

Something that I've always seen as a hard limit for myself has been sharing or auctioning, especially to another man. I couldn't fathom the idea of being intimate with another man partially due to the fact that I have little interest in men, or so I thought. I also strongly disliked the idea of being given to just anybody who lusted over me, even though I was well aware that Daddy would never allow this... But lately, my thoughts on the topic have changed somewhat and I found myself very confused both in terms of my sexuality and what turns me on.

Since I was 12 or so, I realized that I was interested in girls. Until I met Daddy, I was fairly ashamed of that. I didn't grow up in a overly serious homophobic family (That's actually questionable now because of my father) but talk of girls with girls and boys with boys was never a topic touched but I knew that I would've been judged somehow by my overly conservative mother. It was something I only confessed to my closest friends, most were bi, and my boyfriend at the time. My interest in girls is something I'm more open about but not so much with my family, even despite dating two girls in the past. Over the course of this, I've felt my interest in girls has grown significantly to the point where men were nothing but "visually appealing". I began to become comfortable with the idea that I may have been a lesbian in love with one lucky man. It was something hard for U/us to comprehend but I digress.

This evening I found myself relishing in new fantasies that I've yet discussed with Daddy - Sharing. We were playing and Daddy began speaking about how He wondered just how dirty I am and what else hides in my mind and subconscious that we've yet to discover and speak up about. I told Him I had one thing in mind but was ashamed to say it, not so much fearing that He would get upset but it was something that I didn't want to admit to myself. I mumbled fairly softly, "Well... Lately I've been thinking that maybe I could be shared with Your friends, if they wanted to play with me." I even brought up the idea of being fucked by Daddy and sucking off one of His friends. I heard Him chuckle a bit and begin asking questions like, "What made you think that," and, "How long have you been thinking about that?" After that He began teasing me by tapping into the fantasy and asking how I'd seduce them.

This was a bit surprising to the both of us because I've liked the idea of dressing up as a maid around His friends and seriously taking the role, but it was more for eye-candy sake. I had always told Him that I didn't want to be touched or played with by. O/our ex-girlfriend and I even used to discuss this all the time as well, it was something we both agreed on and feared. What on Earth could suddenly possess me to change my mind? Are my hard limits that easily broken if I'm turned on enough? What about my disinterest in men, what happened? These questions raced through my head.

We talked things out and He reassured me that these fantasies were okay and that if I really wanted to take part in them that I could. Daddy is not a jealous man, at least without reason; me having sex with other people doesn't bother Him because He knows they are no threat to His place in my heart or life. So that topic was of no concern to Him, even if I worry that it would really bother Him despite what He says.

With that being said,  we'd talk conditions first before any playdate, our most important one being no man is allowed to cum inside my pussy. They can cum on my skin or in my mouth but my pussy is His. Normally Daddy would say no to any man fucking my pussy, but on the topic of His friends, or mutual friends, He trusts them enough not to hurt me or break our other conditions. It also goes without saying but if W/we have a Dom friend then under no circumstance is he to try and dominate me. Our other limit for now is my ass, even if I was trained enough to take a cock in my ass, I'd be afraid of the other person going too rough and not being able to read my body language... I could always speak up but still.

Daddy told me that He expects me to please and impress O/our guest like a good fuckdoll should.

Saturday, September 21, 2013

Thoughts and Self Improvement

A big part of my training has always been self improvement. For the last day and a half I've been thinking and I've decided it's time to make some of my own improvements. I may not be in the best mental state to really focus working on these, but I'd like to in the future. I have a (bad) habit of striving for perfection; while I don't know how a perfect me would be, I know there are things that can be fixed. Through self analysis, I feel that I'm to blame for many fights with Daddy and general social issues with people. I have a very hard time expressing myself but when I do, I think it pushes people away. I have a hard time of holding on to friends.

I know I have flaws, I know there are some parts of me that annoys Daddy. I've always believed that love is accepting someone as they are for both their good and bad. I will admit that it has landed me in some bad situations in the past, but at the same time, it's something I want from people. I cannot expect perfection what I can't even give perfection. I've also always been told to never change yourself for someone... But isn't that impossible? Change is inevitable and is the only constant thing in life and it's only natural to want to be more compatible with people. If I can see that changing myself is for the better (for myself and in general) then I see no problem with it.

  • Stop comparing yourself to others.This is toxic behavior. There's a reason I am me and there's a reason that you are you. The beauty about humans is there's such a wide range of personalities and, aside from our looks, this is what makes us unique. There are people who like me for who I am and that should be important enough.
  • Stop comparing your relationship to others. This ties in with the previous one but I have to mention it because I'm just as guilty. I should not look at other couples and see them as a mold for Daddy and I to fit in. What we have is special, just like everyone else's relationship. I should not feel sad when Daddy doesn't do something that other men do because He is not like other men. The same goes for Him, He cannot feel bad when I don't do something that other women do.
  • Stop picking arguments. It's completely normal for healthy couples to fight; fighting is a result of differences in personality. I don't believe they should be the cause of the end of a relationship unless the differences are large and no one's willing to compromise and work them out. What's not okay is trying to act like a know-it-all and pick an argument.
  • Stop holding the past over His head. The past is the past, this is now. That means what happens then is done; nothing can be done about it. It's important that I learn to let things go and not hold on to them because it only harms me.
  • Think before you speak. It does neither of us any good to say things that I don't mean. I should treat others how I want to be treated.
  • Control your thoughts and impulses.
  • The world doesn't revolve around you. Stop making it seem like it does.
  • Be less clingy and "obsessive".

Thursday, September 19, 2013

What is the DD/lg dynamic?

In the world of D/s relationships, Doms and subs have different titles, sometimes depending on the dynamic or based on comfort between the couples. While most people are familiar with Master/slave or Master/pet, there is a "gentler" and more lenient dynamic and that is DD/lg. DD/lg stands for Daddy Dom and little girl, but it also known as Daddy Dom and babygirl. Do not be fooled by the name though, it is not gender specific, there are Mommies and little boys as well. It still involves a Dominant (male or female) and a submissive (male or female). Some other names for the dynamic include CG/l (Caregiver/little) and Big/little.

The elements around the D/s lifestyle are pretty similar to that of your typical one which includes guidance, protection, training, and devotion. What makes it different from other well known branches (Master/slave and Master/pet) is that the submissive holds an inner-child side and ageplay is often incorporated in it, so not every Dom is interested in it because of the this. The power exchange between the Daddy/Mommy and little is often lower versus a TPE (total power exchange). There are also different expectations for a little than a slave, for example. Protocols and the expectations may be different or much more relaxed. The dynamic instead focuses on care and guidance for the little, where rules enforced ensure that. While the Daddy stills holds characteristics of a typical Dom, he now also plays a more intimate and nurturing parental role. He does not take the place of a true father figure that is in His sub’s life. Engaging in incest roleplay is not uncommon though and should not be judged.

What is a Daddy Dom or Mommy Domme?

A Daddy, Mommy, or any other Big is a type of Dominant partner. The Big can be of any gender and age group. It's a common misconception that a Big has to be a lot older than the little but this is completely false. While experience does come with age, age alone is not what makes a person Dominant. Some Daddies are strict, while others are more relaxed. It all depends on the person, connection, and the power exchange. Daddies focus more on guidance and nurturing their little, helping them grow as a person and explore theirselves. This isn’t to say that other Doms don’t do the same but their reasons behind it may be different.

Being a Daddy is more than sex and having the ability to control. Being a Daddy is more than just giving spankings. "Daddy" is more than just a name or a title. It's a mindset, it's a personality, it's a way of being. And most importantly it's a great amount of responsibility. To a Daddy, his little is his world and the feeling is mutual. He may see them through the eyes of a parent, but this is not to say that the relationship is incestuous at all, or that the Daddy takes the place of the little's father. They are his most prized possession and a work of art, not in terms of physical appearance, but showing his skill and care as a Dominant. They take on the responsibilities of their little's life, helping relieve some of the stress and guiding them through every day obstacles.

 A Daddy sees potential in his little and does his best to bring it out. Think of finding a rough gem, it’s a gem crafter’s job to cut and shine that gem to show its true potential. Rules are set in place to make sure their little is taking care of themselves. These rules can apply to how they carry out their day, reminding them to take care of proper hygiene, allowing him to choose what they wear, making sure they’re eating healthy, and if they’re on medications that they’re taking them daily. These rules can also apply to internal factors such as encouraging a little to speak up if they’re feeling down, self conscious, or feel that their needs are not being met in the relationship. These rules of encouragement allow the little to speak their mind without fear of being punished or yelled at. And of course there can be rules set in place that are how the little should act towards their Daddy and how to meet his needs. It’s important to emphasize that these needs are not always sexual; submission can be carried out in many different ways. Chores and assignments may also be given to help teach the little responsibility.

 When a little acts out of line, it's his job to teach them right from wrong. Punishments may be given to teach a lesson and they can range from physical punishments, to extra chores, to writing assignments, to loss of privileges. A Daddy does not like punishing his little though, in comparison to how a sadist likes to inflict pain on their bottom. There is no enjoyment in being disappointed and let down, having to correct behavior, or see their little cry with shame. The punishment is not about giving pleasure through pain but it's teaching a lesson and conditioning, providing an action and a lecture as to why it was wrong and what they can do differently to behave better. But after the punishment it's his job to remind the little that once it's over, the issue is dust in the wind.

What is a little?

The term little refers to a submissive that is more of a child-at-heart and plays on their child-like nature. In some communities you'll see that the term's original definition is used a little bit differently and losely, since you can find littles who are more interested in little space but without D/s. For the sake of talking about the dynamic and lifestyle, I'll be using the term with D/s in mind. In general littles may require more care, attention, protection, and guidance than other submissives. Their Dominant partner acts as more of a parental or caregiver figure than other types of Dominants and are typically called names along the lines of Mommy and Daddy, but you’ll find dynamics where the Big partner is another “family” member (sister and brother or even Uncle or Aunt, for example). They feed off each other; the Big giving the support, care, and guidance, while receiving devotion, love, obedience, and playfulness that they may desire.

 Not all littles are ageplayers, and not all ageplayers are submissives. Ageplay is a kink that tends to overlap. Non-ageplay littles tend to share a relationship with their Daddy/Mommy that is full of TLC ("tender loving care"; and what’s mentioned above) to feed the inner child, though the sub does not act out as a child. For littles that engage in ageplay, the little actually does take on a little persona and will roleplay as if she were that age. It can range anywhere from simply wanting to look slightly younger, like a cute dress and pig tails, to wanting a pacifier and coloring books and engaging in childish activities. These activities can be completely non-sexual and for the benefit and happiness of the little, which is why you'll see Daddies/Mommies take part in these activities. Each little is different and has their own interests. From there the Daddy/Mommy takes on His role and acts accordingly, depending on the age, they may need more structure, guidance, and attention than other subs.

It is not uncommon for a Daddy/Mommy to establish rules to teach His little and keep them in line. These rules can range from behavioral rules to every day things such as bedtimes and bathroom privileges. Some couples even create a reward system and chart to praise when the little has been good. At the end of the week or month, prizes are rewarded for good behavior. Like other dynamics, punishments are typically given for littles who break the rules and can range from spankings to loss of privileges.

Please note that the DD/lg dynamic has nothing to do with pedophilia. We do not condone the acts of pedophilia and the exploitation of children in any way. Just as adults like to take on other roles in the bedroom such as nurse, pet, porn star, etc. it is all roleplay; that is the same for ageplay. No matter how taboo the roleplay or fantasy, it's harmless as long as no one is being abused. No one is sexualizing children and the dynamic is not pedophilia. Pedophiles would not be interested in adult women anyways, no matter how young they dress or look, because they're attracted to the idea of prepubescent children either for the sake of the easy manipulation and sex or the body. The DD/lg dynamic is like any other aspect of BDSM - it is safe, sane, and consensual between adults. Those who participate in the dynamic should be not be shamed for doing so and should not be accused of having "daddy issues".

  What DD/lg is not...
  • For minors or anyone under 18.
  • gender, sexuality, age (18+), or race specific.
  • just calling your boyfriend or husband "daddy" in bed This would be considered topping and bottoming. There is nothing wrong with that but since it's bedroom play rather than a lifestyle, it differs from a D/s dynamic.
  • the same as sugar daddies and sugar babies.
  • a reason for a submissive to act like a brat and manipulate their Dom/Domme.
  • a way to get spoiled and give nothing in return.

Other explanations of DD/lg:

What is a Daddy Dom? -
 What is a little? -
What is DD/lg? - Written by romantic-ds
What is a Daddy Dom? - Library for Kinksters
The Wonderful World of Littles - Submissvefeminist

Some questions regarding the dynamic

Q: I want to hop in and be a little/Daddy/Mommy, but I have no experience in the lifestyle.
 A: If you're willing to take the dynamic seriously and have what it takes then hop right in. I recommend joining Fetlife and joining DD/lg groups on there or Tumblr's DD/lg community to learn more. Please remember that owning another person is a very big responsibility. Their safety and well-being lies in your hands. If you don't feel like you can carry on this role and take this responsibility outside of the bedroom then a D/s dynamic may not be for you.

  Q: Do I have to be an older man/woman to be a Daddy/Mommy?
 A: No, this dynamic's roles are not age specific. You will find that a lot of littles prefer older men than younger men but that's simply a preference and living out the fantasy of Nobakov's Lolita (which also has nothing to do with this dynamic). Your age does not disqualify you if you are a Dom and would like to engage in this dynamic.

  Q: Do I have to call my Dom "Daddy"? I feel uncomfortable with that title.
 A:No, you don't. You can call your Daddy or Mommy any title that you're both comfortable with. Being a Daddy or a Mommy is more than titles, anyone can call their partner those names and it doesn’t make them a Daddy Dom/Mommy Domme. A Daddy or Mommy is characterized based on the dynamic they have with their little - the rules and guidelines given, the expectations, the power exchange, taking on a caregiver or parental role, etc.

 Don’t let a dynamic’s title name limit you, it’s simply a name given to describe the type of dynamic and differentiate it from Owner/pet and Master/slave. It’s simply a guideline. You can call your partner anything you both are comfortable with and that doesn’t change your dynamic.

 Here are some alternative names:
Q: Are there set rules or guidelines?
 A: Nope, your relationship is however you create it. But basic understandings of a D/s lifestyle will give you some basic foundation to work from, as well as letting you see how to improve your role or your partner's.

 Q: Can I engage in pet play and still be a little? A: Most definitely and it's very common too. As I've come to learn, the other branches in the D/s dynamic serve as guidelines and give you an idea of what sort of relationship you're aiming for. You're more than welcome to take and omit whatever you'd like.

 Q: Is it all about sex?
 A: Not at all. Unless stated otherwise, D/s relationships are not just about sex. What makes a D/s relationship is the power exchange between then couple. Many DD/lg couples are in intimate, romantic relationships and carry on with their mixed (vanilla and kink) lives together just like vanilla couples. Also servitude and submission can be shown in many other ways and that's for you and your partner to discuss. So if you're asexual, you can most definitely carry on this sort of dynamic.

Q: What is the different between DD/lg and ageplay?
 A: DD/lg is a D/s dynamic and involves a power exchange between the Dom and sub. ABDL and ageplay are not, instead they are forms of roleplay whether it’s sexual or not. They can be incorporated into a relationship involving power exchanges. If you'd like a more in depth answer, please click here

Q: What makes a good Daddy/Mommy?

Q: Do I have to like girly things or like baby things?
I get this question a lot. A lot of new littles think they don't fit in with what the "ideal little look" or persona. There's no set look to be a little. You don't have to like what others like, such as pacifiers, diapers, Disney princesses, MLP, etc. You don't have to engage in ageplay. You don't have to dress up in girly clothing or like cutesy pastel colors.

Don't let others tell you you're not a little because you don't like what they like.

Q: Where can I meet a Daddy, Mommy, or other littles.

  • Fetlife:
Ageplay Personals - You may or may not find Daddy/Mommy Doms/Dommes in this group. I say this because ageplay and DD/lg are slightly different, and not every ageplayer is looking for a Dom when they look for a Daddy or Mommy. But you can definitely find friends or playmates in here. Daddy - lil girl/babygirl Personals
Daddy Doms/Babygirl submissives 
Daddy Doms and Babygirls
Daddy ~ girl Relationships

To view these groups you will need to join Fetlife. Fetlife is strictly for 18+. Make your account and fill out your profile. Make sure you talk about yourself and what you're looking for. Aside from the groups mentioned above, join groups that are centered around your city or a large city around you. Munches and events are a great way to meet people and learn new things.
      *Please note that personals posts should only be posted in personals groups. If it's posted outside of those, your post may be seen as spam and deleted.
  • - A DD/lg (CG/l or Big/little) friendly forum for Bigs and littles of all kinds to make friends, discuss topics, and talk about their relationships.
  • Littlespace Online - A DD/lg, CG/l, ageplay, and ABDL community.

Last edited:  August 3, 2015

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

BDSM Essentials

So as I mentioned a few days ago in a post, I joined Collarme. I joined as a Domme and have seen firsthand how ridiculous members of the site are. I've always heard about how the site like a meat market, full of scammers, and full of fake profiles. Considering it's more well known than Fetlife and has been around longer, I'm not surprised. Aside from those things mentioned, I've come across another big problem - the lack of understanding submission and D/s roles.
Let give you some examples:
This is actually only 3 messages out of the 35 pages of messages I have, most of them being similar to this. I've had some pretty scary ones similar to the last 3rd:
"OMG!! I want to die for you! i will hang myself. Maybe I can leave all my possessions and money to you! Do you want to watch? :) I will serve you in any way you want! I am serious! I am fat and bald and i know i am a loser that is why i will give toy my money and then hang myself!! :) :)"
I'm not even sure where to begin but I'll address the last 2 mentioned first. BDSM is meant to be safe, sane, and consensual. These messages and offerings to submit to me are not safe or sane. I don't see any pleasure in highly harming or disabling someone. I'm pretty sure it could get me in trouble with the law too, but clearly these people didn't think about that. Secondly, dying for someone to gain their attention or dominance is not cute and it shows that this person is not mentally stable enough to pursue a D/s dynamic. I highly suggest that people like this seek therapy and I pray that they don't find someone else who's interested in fulfilling their wishes.

Now that that's out of the way, I wanted to address the issues I mentioned before. I've (officially) been in the lifestyle for two and a half years now, I've been active in the Fetlife and Tumblr communities and no matter where I go, I still come across messages like the first two. It still baffles me that even on sites that revolve around the lifestyle, people still feel the need to send messages asking for ownership. You are in a website full of kinky people (kinksters, Doms, subs) who are looking for someone and you're going to tell me that you can't send a proper message? At least an introduction and statement about what you're looking for.
It's really important to make a good impression. If you're looking for someone and you're interested in them, you need to present yourself in an way that is honest and appealing to the other person's wants. This is why I'll never understand messages such as, "Can I be your Daddy?" or "Can I be your slave/pet/babygirl?" No, you can't because you couldn't even make the effort to get to know me, introduce yourself, and handle the situation maturely. How can I tell that we're even compatible? You're not 13 and this isn't Gaiaonline, a D/s dynamic is serious and if you can't handle it seriously, why should I consider you? As I've said before, you don't just go up to random people in everyday like and ask, "Will you be my boyfriend/girlfriend?" So why treat the lifestyle like it's completely different, especially on matching-making or social network sites that cater to that?
As I've also mentioned before, this is not a relationship revolving around the exchange of cute names. Have a Daddy or Master is not just a cute nickname your boyfriend or girlfriend carries in the bedroom. No, no, no D/s is a lifestyle and it goes far beyond the bedroom. Daddy says and I do. Servitude is so much more than fulfilling sexual needs. If you're not willing to have rules, serve, obey, learn, etc. then a D/s dynamic is not for you, and you're better off finding another kinkster who is fine with keeping such things strictly in the bedroom.
The other thing that I wanted to mention was the lack of understanding or seriousness around D/s roles. There is actually a difference between being a submissive and a slave due to the power exchange. A submissive (pet/babygirl/etc) still holds on to their basic rights, this is because there is not a total power exchange. The submissive has not given up all his/her right to the Dom, so they can still have a say in things. As a slave there is a total power exchange; the submissive has completely given up her rights and freewill to his/her Dom. They can no longer negotiate an order regardless how they feel about it.
As Master and slave dynamic is not something to take lightly and is not something that should be established overnight. You better know your Dom well and have gone over all of your interests and limits when the question of slave ownership comes up. And most importantly, you better have a lot of trust and faith in your Dom to completely give yourself to them in such a way.

30 Days of Ageplay: Day 14

Do you have any favorite titles for yourself?

 I have so many names from Daddy but my favorites are (in no particular order) babygirl, baby-bunny, princess, and little girl.

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

30 Days of Ageplay: Day 12 and Day 13

If you have a caretaker/partner, tell us how you told them about this topic. If not, how would you go about bringing up the subject?
What’s the title you’ve given to your caretaker or Dom? If you don’t have one, what would you want to call him or her?
I'm combining these two because it's easier for explanation sake. I realized that while answering day 12, day 13 was answered too.
Back in early 2011, I had made it clear that at some point I wanted a D/s dynamic in our relationship. It's something He wanted too, He had even had a submissive at the time who turned out to be my girlfriend in the future. At the time I was really set on being a kitten and exploring pet play.  Personal reasons on both sides kept us from establishing the dynamic until August 2011. 

My training began but a few days later, I was having second thoughts about calling Him "Master". Because of my previous relationship, it left a bad taste in my mouth despite the fact that months before this, I would call Him that name every so often. I had been introduced to the DD/lg (it was actually Daddy Dom and babygirl back then) community through Tumblr, and I decided to read up on it more. Upon reading I realized that I was a babygirl, I fit the explanation almost perfectly. I brought up to Him and told Him about it, as well as asking if it was something we could pursue. He was a little hesitant about it at first but agreed.

On Fetlife the DD/lg community was split between non-ageplay babygirls and ageplay babygirls. I identified with the former back then because I had no interest in ageplay. I felt that naturally I had interests that were younger than my given age (18 at the time) so I didn't feel the need or point of having a regression age. You can read more about that here

It wasn't until about February 2012 that I actually did start regressing. At the beginning it was just a voice change and change in mannerisms but it's been a slippery slope downward since. I think both of us were pretty surprised since it was not something He was into and neither was I, but He wasn't mad. A big part of my training was learning to accept myself, so He reassured me and told me to just give in to it in the future.

So confessing I am an ageplaying wasn't really something done verbally, it was just something that happened and we discussed it afterwards. I feel I am lucky to have a boyfriend who has been accepting of my kinks and has been with me every step of the way through this - no, our journey.

Monday, September 16, 2013

New Buttplug

Originally written April 24, 2013

So I got my new plug in the mail today. For those of you curious it's a Doc Johnson Spectra Gel Anal Stuffer bought from Love Honey. It's pretty big and I'll admit I felt intimidated at first but I was really excited to use it. After all, I've been waiting since April 4th for this. Daddy had me lube it up nicely and bend over. He reminded me that the goal was not to force it all the way in but to see how far I could comfortably take it.
My first try wasn't too successful. I pushed in the first bump with no problem. As I was pushing in the second bump, I forgot the meaning of "gentle" and pushed it in pretty quickly and it hurt like hell. I quickly pulled it out and took a few moments break.

After the pain died down, I was determined to try it again so I lubed it up again. Daddy reminded me to take deep breaths and exhale as I pushed it in, He says it relaxed the body. He also told me that this time with each bump to take a moment to let my body adjust. So I bent over and spread my legs further, I decided to go for a more crouched position than upright kneel. I pushed the first bump again with no problem and took a moment to adjust. I applied more pressure slowly and let the second bump slip in. I let out a gasp and a long exhale as I bent down and let my body get used to the new sensation. The second one has the largest increase in size from the first, so getting over that one was what it took to comfortably move on.

We then continued on to the next bump, which is the largest but only a slight increase from the second so it went in easily. I was going to stop there but I applied a bit more pressure and ended up taking the last bump and then the whole thing. Mind you, the length of this plug is 6 inches; I'm not sure about the girth off the top of my head.

At that point I just relaxed and Daddy congratulated me, telling me that I was a good girl and that He was proud of me. He asked me how it felt and I replied that it felt good and had no pain. I started to get a little worked up though about what if it started hurting; but I managed to calm myself down.

I've had it in for a half hour now and it's really comfortable, almost natural feeling. I love it and I'm proud that I was able to completely take it in today, even if it wasn't our initial goal.

30 Days of Ageplay: Day 11

Is there anyone that knows that you’re an ageplayer? Would you tell any of your closest friends?

While I've only mentioned my best friend knowing, I have a handful of friends that know about my D/s dynamic and my ageplay interest. I think there's about 7 people to be more specific but I won't mention names.

My best friend already knows, I told her about it a year ago on the phone. You can see that story here.

The second person to know is one of my three close guy friends that I refer to as "bro". He's a mutual friend of Daddy and I and He's actually a Daddy Dom. I don't remember ever straight up telling Him, He and His ex babygirl started following me when I first made my D/s Tumblr. I go to Him when I run into issues or need a second opinion and He comes to me when He needs advise, vanilla or not.

Then another bro of mine knows. I don't remember telling him either, just one day gave him that Tumblr because I was on it more than my original one and he started following me. He's never questioned my interest or even brought up the subject but as far as I know, it's never made him uncomfortable.

An old high school buddy, who also happens to be an ex, knows too. He's known from the beginning about it and various other kinks. He was the first person I know in real life to actually know about my kinky side and it was cool because he was kinky too. Unfortunately we've grown apart since then.

The next three people are more real life friends from a fashion community I'm part of and they found out by chance.

The first one to find out actually came across my Tumblr... I'm not sure how but she did. She sent me an anonymous message telling me that she was pretty sure she knew who I was and also confessed that she too is a little (not sure if she's a little into ageplay though). Considering I have a tracker on my blog, I was able to tell the relative area of the message sender and narrowed my guess down to her and another girl. She actually came off anon and told me who she was. Since then we've lightly discussed it on Facebook but not too much. I'd like to offer her guidance in finding a Daddy in the future.

The next two are actually a couple. They do solo and couple camshows together and one day they came across a recording of one my shows on an imageboard. They sent me a message saying that we needed to talk and they told me what happened and confessed that they did shows too. Thankfully I felt same with them knowing this and while hanging out with them for a few days I confessed that I was an ageplayer a babygirl submissive. They don't have a great understanding of D/s relationships aside from how you would see it portrayed in porn. They've kept my secret and I've kept theirs.

With all that being said, am I careful about who I let know? Yes, I'm not the type of person who intends to shove my sexual interests in other people's faces; it's rude because not everyone shares those interests. I'm also afraid of scaring people off or making them feel uncomfortable around me. I know a lot of girls in my community look down on ageplayers because they assume that it's all AB/DL, which is not true. I'm content with those who know already and unless I found more openly kinky friends, I don't believe I'd share it.

What am I looking for?

I've been getting this question asked a lot, it's time that I address it.

I am not looking for a specific gender - male, female, or trans is fine by me. Please note that while I am bisexual, I much more attracted to women for a romantic relationship than men, but I have no problem having a male sub, this is because the idea of humiliating, degrading, and fulfilling my sadistic urges amuses me and turns me on.

At the moment I can not offer a live-in D/s dynamic or 24/7, this is because of my living situation and I am not looking to relocate for anyone except My Daddy. But I will not limit it to online only, I am fine with meeting you in a public place, perhaps at a munch hosted by my local BDSM community.

I want someone who is honest and serious. I believe that honesty in any sort of relationship is very important but especially in romantic and D/s ones. I want someone that I can know on a personal level or even a friendship level and that understands that I am not looking for a quick thrill or to sate your quick thrill*; I want to explore My side and yours as well. I want you to trust Me before I can even consider ownership. A D/s dynamic is nothing without trust. Submission is a gift given through trust and even love, do not give it so easily because it can be taken advantage of; it's not safe.

I do not want someone that has no limits. It's fine if you're not sure if something is a hard limit of yours or not, but to tell me that you have no limits is ridiculous. I will not take someone who has no concern for their own well-being or safety. Please realize that I am still learning what interests me as a Domme, I have many interests as a submissive but some of those do not apply to both sides. I am fairly open to kinks, and you have one that is not listed on my profile, talk to me about it and we can come to some sort of agreement.

*If you're looking for a quick thrill in terms of having me control you, humiliate you, degrade you, give you assignments, tasks, etc. then that is fine. Just realize that some sort of payment would be nice. Please message me to discuss what you're looking for and to find out what I'm comfortable or uncomfortable with.

Friday, September 13, 2013

Let's get one thing straight, if you ever send a message like the one below to someone, you're an idiot:
If you feel the need to demand someone to bow down to you and submit, you don't know a thing about dominance and submission. If you feel the need to use manipulation and inflict fear to gain control, you still don't know a thing about D/s. I wouldn't even call you a Dom if you presented yourself that way. So atmyfeetkunktt, let me teach you a thing or two, not that you deserve to be taught but because you need to be knocked off your high horse.

First off, if you took your hand off your tiny dick and actually read my profile, you'd have found out that I am owned and not looking for another Dom. Let me make this clear, just because a man or woman is a submissive does not mean that they are obligated to serve you. Even if I wasn't owned, I don't have to do jackshit for you, I don't owe anything to you. You have not earned my submission.

Being Dom is not about having the ability to control someone. It's not about being an abusive prick. It's not about getting to fuck someone with their consent. It's about love, trust, respect, and honesty. To dominate someone is not just owning them but also be there as a mentor. Your primary role as a Dom is to help a submissive grow not only into their role but also help them grow as a person. This is more than name calling and dominance in the bedroom, this is ownership of another human being. That means you are responsible for what happens to them under your care.

If you can't treat another human being with the respect that they deserve, then why should they respect you? Like submission, full respect is earn. Treat others how you'd want to be treated.

30 Days of Ageplay: Day 10

Tell us about an ageplay fantasy of yours. It can be sexual or non-sexual.

Unfortunately I'll have to keep this non-sexual since Blogger has strict rules on NSFW content.

An ageplay fantasy that I have would be of day of giving in to my childish side with Daddy. I would love if one weekend that Daddy surprised me by laying out an outfit on the bed for me to wear for the day, something girly and cute-looking. Daddy and I would bathe together and then He could help me get dressed and do my hair - maybe some low braids or high pigtails.

Afterwards Daddy would take me to empty park where I could swing for a bit... Maybe even be walked around on my leash afterwards. Then I'd like to head out for ice cream together. I'd get a big waffle cone with several scoops of vanilla ice cream topped with strawberry syrup, strawberry pieces, and chocolate chips. Daddy will definitely have to carry around some napkins for me because I'll probably end up making a mess around my mouth. Of course, He could always just wipe my mouth clean and then lick off the mix of strawberry sauce and ice cream off of His finger.

Perhaps we could walk around town for a bit and then head back home. I'd run inside the house and sit on my favorite spot on the couch and ask for Daddy to put on a movie for us to watch again. I'd cook us some extra buttery popcorn then head back in the living room and cuddle up to Him and enjoy the movie together.

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

FinDoms: The Nasty Word

In the two years that I've been a submissive, hearing or seeing the word FinDom has shown up a lot within the Tumblr community. I had heard nothing but bad things about it and this fed on to my beliefs and misunderstandings of the dynamic. It's also fairly taboo on Fetlife. I had a firm belief that it was as low as conning someone and toying with someone's emotions. I've very recently found myself growing an interest and curiosity surrounding the whole dynamic and what it entails.

For those of you who don't know, FinDom is short for Financial Domination. It's a branch of D/s dynamics that revolves around payments going toward the Domme. Each Domme does it differently but the idea is to own a slave or piggy who is willing to submit to you and pay you. You're probably thinking, "Who's stupid enough to do such a thing?" There are actually many men who consider this a real kink for them and do this for their own personal reasons - some men get off to the idea of being forced to pay, others feel a sense of satisfaction and self-worth for helping out their Mistress/Goddess/Princess. They want to see their Domme live as their title.

The relationship shared between a FinDomme and Her sub is unique to each. Contrary to what I originally believed, this is not about women forcing just any submissive man to pay them. After joining a FinDom site and reading the forums, I learnt that many of these women want to know their sub on at least a personal level. It's not about forcing every man to just pay up. There are both good and bad Dommes and while I can't speak for them all, it appears that many of them do want to earn the needed trust to carry on the dynamic. This is something that my Daddy doesn't quite understand and something that I didn't understand up until yesterday, we assumed that it was making helpless men pay and was a mockery of a true D/s dynamic.

You will find that many men crave to be humiliated and degraded in extreme ways. This includes public ridicule on blogs, comments in pictures, etc. Some men want more humiliation than others, that's something that's discussed between the Domme and sub. When I first came across it, I was disgusted by the treatment these men go through, but then it hit me that male subs (in general) tend to really be into this. As long as it's consensual between both parties, there's nothing wrong with it.

And while this may sound like easy money, if done correctly, it shouldn't be. This is not prostitution and it's not conning someone either (but it can be both). Not every  woman can be a FinDomme because not every woman can be a Domme, even in general terms. Not every woman can properly own someone. Owning a submissive is a big responsibility whether he is owned 24/7 or just when the Domme can.While money and humiliation play a large factor into this, the submissive's well-being should always come first. You have to realize that there will be times when the submissive will be sick, depressed, or stressed and may not be able to contribute as much as he normally can. This is when the nurturing and caring aspect of a Domme should come into effect.

So why is FinDom such a nasty word?
Because a lot can go wrong. The biggest issue is addiction. A Domme should also know when to put her greed aside. A submissive can become addicted to paying the Domme, just as people become addicted to gambling. I feel that while a Domme is taking money from the sub, it is important that periodically they both go over his financial state. This takes a lot of trust but I'm hoping that it's something that is done once a sub has been owned long term. Both parties are responsible for making sure the financial state is at a healthy level where he can still pay but also take care of himself and maybe even his family.

There's also the fact that some women may treat it as a true abusive relationship rather than a D/s one. There is a line where a Domme should not cross - hard limit exist for a reason. With financial domination, this issue becomes an add-on to the normal risk of abuse. There can be lies, manipulation, and blackmailing. The lies can be about anything such as the relationship status of the Domme, how many other subs there are, where his money is going, etc.

So why am I interested in this?
When I confessed to Daddy that I had an interest in this he gave me a disgusted look. I won't lie, the money is tempting and even more so now than ever - I have big plans for 2014 as well as expensive hobbies. Camming made me a decent amount of money when I did it regularly but I haven't up until now, which I'd like to get back into. But aside from the money, I've known for a while that I've wanted to gives in to my dominant urges and explore this side of me. I've been able to do so since June with my puppy but it's just roleplay, so it's not a true D/s dynamic. There are things that now interest me that don't interest him and I respect his limits.

30 Days of Ageplay: Day 9

What are some little activities or hobbies that you have?

Whoops, I'm running behind on this again.
I sat for a few moments and tried to think of little activities or hobbies that I might have and I couldn't come up with many. I'm not into coloring books; don't get me wrong, I love to color it's just that I prefer it to be my own artwork. I'm not a fan of the paper used for coloring books either, it's like it's made solely for crayons and I hate crayons.

I love movies, especially classic Disney movies that I watched as a kid. They never get old to me. I still own all my favorites on VHS, but our VCR no longer works so I don't watch them unless ABC Family or Disney Channel is showing them.

I also like kid's toys still. I don't play with them often mainly because I don't have many left and it's boring to play alone, but I find the toy aisle at stores hard to resist. It's a shame that I don't drive because when I go to the store, it's with my parents and it would be weird to just run off to those aisles. Well... Monster High dolls could be my excuse.

I think the most obvious interest for me is playing dress up. No, I'm not talking about heading to the mall and just trying clothes on, I'm talking about going through my closet and putting on several outfits to show off to Daddy. Sometimes I love to wear cutesy outfits, I have this adorable Victoria's Secret shirt that's almost like a dress and it's beautiful. There are other times where I like to attempt a (mall) goth look with what little I have to create it.

Friday, September 6, 2013

30 Days of Ageplay: Day 8

Do you have any favorite toys or stuffies?

I've mentioned him before so yes, I do. This is Deimos. He's my cuddle buddy and guardian given to me by Daddy for 20th birthday. He's about a foot tall and he's super soft. I sleep with him every night and go into a mini state of panic if I don't have him with me.

I'm not sure how many other littles do this but when I'm playing with Daddy, I usually turn him around so he can't see.

Some other things I have that are really important to me are my Bratz dolls, they're currently at my other house so I can't provide pictures; they're nothing too special to see anyways. The reason they're so important to me is because they hold strong memories of my childhood. I remember a couple years back my mum was going to give them away and I freaked out, especially over my first one. So they're currently sitting in a carry case and a few on shelves in my closet.

When He's Happy, I'm happy

A few days ago Daddy got a collaboration request from an acquaintance to work together to create a game. He has made games on His own before but honestly expressed that it's harder to work on His own. Daddy was beaming with happiness seeing this as a great opportunity to start coding again and giving Him motivation to work again. There was even a mention about monetizing it in the future.

After He told me this, I told Him, "Today is going to be a good day because I said so," and it was. A few hours later, a large envelope was handed to me and it was my GED results. We were Skyping so I held up the envelope and opened it, taking a deep breath before pulling the contents out. I passed! In my hand I had my diploma and transcripts, everything I needed to apply for college in the spring. I was so happy and I could see it on His face too, I could tell He was proud of me.

I bring this up because as His girlfriend and submissive, it brings me joy to see the man I love smile. He is normally a rather sullen man, well not around me but in general. He's not easily amused by things like I am. So to see something other myself make Him happy makes me smile. And I know it's something mutual. Setting selfish desires aside, there is nothing else in life I'd want than to see my Daddy in good spirits and being successful in what He does. We are supportive of each other, but that's not to say that we would let either engage in something that's stupid or unsafe.

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

30 Days of Ageplay: Days 6 & 7

How did you know you were a baby/little/middle? Was there anything in your teen years that hinted at it being present?
I've explained that before in a previous post.

What is something that brings you to your little space? This can be something someone says, movies, and so on.
Being called little girl or babygirl really puts me in "little space". It's very comforting and lets me know that it's okay to let go for a bit. It also causes a bit of an issue because I have a dog named Babygirl, so when someone calls her name, I have to remind myself that they're not calling me.

Movies like The Princess Diaries or any Disney princess movie brings me to little space because it reminds me of when I was younger and would watch the shit out of those movies. Come to think of it, even some songs put me in that space.

Monday, September 2, 2013

The Little Mistress

The majority of posts in this blog are me talking about my experiences as a submissive but on the side, I'm a haughty little Mistress. I don't get in this mindset too often but when I do it's because my confidence is pretty high. I don't have much experience being a Mistress but I'm learning. I look up to Daddy for guidance. I think what calls my attention is being able to get what I want and sate my sadistic side. I'm not much of pain sadist but a pleasure one; there's actually a fine line between pain and pleasure. I also love humiliation, which is something I like as a submissive as well.

I have a puppy boy, I don’t own him and we’re not a 24/7 - it’s more roleplaying but I like it that way. I don’t feel like I know enough about being a Domme to own someone and I can’t say I feel responsible enough to take that role yet. It’s also a bit tough on me since I’m trying to figure out my sexuality. I’m not sexually attracted to men but having a guy sub sounds far more intriguing than a woman sub. I think it’s because there’s more room for me to humiliate them. There’s satisfaction in seeing how desperate I can make a man.

Having a puppy has let me explore this side of mine and let it grow. We do have our limits together that's anal play or physical impacts, but most everything else goes. I can humiliate him by calling him a bitch boy or remind me him what his friends would think of him if they saw him this way. I can make him edge a few times and deny him of orgasm. I love the way he whimpers and begs.

There's something else I can get away with though, and that's foot worshiping. As a foot fetishist on both the receiving and giving end, this is something I really love. I can make him kiss my feet or massage them as I please. I haven't mentioned it before but I'm very nimble with my feet, they're like a second pair of hands for me. This makes for exciting foot jobs which show him his place and humiliate him in the sense that he has to be good and earn the privilege to be touched by my hands.

30 Days of Ageplay: Day 5

Any change in voice or mannerisms?
I do have a change in voice and it's predictable - my voice sounds higher pitched. It's not exaggerated or combined with baby-speak though.

My mannerisms do change a bit as well, I have a tendency to speak more in 3rd person and use my own vocabulary for certain things:

  • My Daddy: ”Daddy” “Sir” "Apuci"
  • Myself: “bunny” “doll” “little girl” “puppy"
    ** “Puppy” is used when we’re engaging in pet play 
  • Impact play: ”spankings"
  • My Vagina: ”bunny hole” “pretty pussy” 
  • My Ass: “bunny buns” “bum” 
  • Penis: ”cock” 
  • Sex: ”playtime”  

Sunday, September 1, 2013

Just think, Daddy...

Originally written: Sept. 23, 2011

After all that time spent waiting, we're finally together. Most likely on a bus to some hotel around the capital so we'd have to behave a bit... Of course that doesn't completely stop me. You know how I am. I'm sitting next to you looking all cute and wearing some short little skirt. I look around for a few moments to see if anyone's around. Everything's clear and I tap your shoulder, looking at you with a cheeky grin. You look over to see me pointing down as I briefly lift up my skirt. It occurs to you that the entire time I haven't been wearing panties and now it's all in your view, my soft, clean-shaven mound and delicate pink folds. Your hand reaches down between my thighs and your fingers brush against my folds.

I look up at you with a smirk and whisper in your ear, "Behave, Daddy, we wouldn't want to be seen and get in trouble. Besides, we'll have plenty of time to play later." Of course, I'm not one to give orders but I'm right... Then again considering I'm the one who teased first, I'm no better. We calm down though it's clear our patience is slowly failing and our mind is focused on getting our hands (and more) on each other. However, we manage 'til we reach the hotel.

Finally, a room to ourselves and no one to disturb us. You close the door behind me as I set me bags down and sit on the bed, lying back and calling for you. My legs are spread apart and exposing myself from beneath my skirt. "Daddy, would you like to play with me?" I whisper as I spread my lips. You walk over to the side of the bed next to me and I grab your writ, pulling you down next to her and climbing over your lap
and straddling you. I lean in to brush my lips against yours, finally meeting yours in a passionate kiss and slipping my tongue in. My tongue wrestles with yours as my hand grabs the bulge in your pant and a finger presses down along your shaft through the fabric.

You undo your pants and pull them down, freeing your hard, thick cock with a drop of precum glistening from the tip. I wrap my legs around your waist and chuckles as I grind my pussy against your shaft and covering it in my juices. You lower your head to my neck and lay soft kisses at at first, but it's not long before I feel your teeth graze against my skin before biting down. A soft sigh escapes my lips, lifting my hips up and lowering myself onto you slowly, feeling your head pushing against my tight entrance and slipping in. I can't help but let out a soft moan; that sensation and moment I've been waiting so long for.

I lower myself further down your thick length. I can feel my insides clenching around it tightly. Slowly I begin moving my hips against yours, riding you and increasing my pace a bit more each time you thrust into me. Deeper and deeper each time, you pull out almost all the way and pound into me hard. I feel your lips wrapping around one of my tits, your tongue flicking against my sensitive and perky nipple and muffling a moan. I lean forward to you and wrap my arms around you, my head against yours and a soft moan escaping my lips right against your ear. "Daddy..." I sigh softly as the pleasure builds up and I reach my limit. I don't dare let go though, not yet, not 'til Daddy says so.

Your thrusts speed up and your hips occasionally buck. My nails dig into your back and rake down them, panting as I continue moving my hips with yours but completely out of rhythm already. Your hand glides down between our bodies and pushes against my clit, rubbing it hard. I bite my lip and moan a bit louder. Your head lifts from my tits to my ear and you whisper, "I'm getting close, babygirl." I can hear it in your voice, your resistance failing like mine. Your hips thrust up swiftly and you push your entire length as deep as you can, doing this a couple times.

Suddenly your hands move down to my hips and hold them down and through your teeth I hear you mutter, "Cum for me, babygirl." I let go myself and release the built-up pleasure in my body, my back arching and my head thrown back as I let out a loud moan. My inner walls grip your cock hard as you release your warm cum into me, your grip on my hips holding me down until every last drop of cum has filled me. Your lips part to let out a loud groan but I move in for another kiss, muffling the sound and locking our lips until we're both almost out of breath. I pull away and look down at you with a loving smile. And then and there is when I experience my moment of bliss, perfection, and love.


After reading Blogger's ToS, I've come to realize that from the looks of a viewer not familiar with the DD/lg dynamic, this blog looks like it breaks a lot of the rules. I'd like to start off by saying that this blog is run by a consenting adult (I'm 20). I have been in a D/s relationship with my 22 year old boyfriend since February 2011. Yes, I do call my boyfriend "Daddy" but we have no sort of shared family relations and do not condone incest. He is called "Daddy" because that's the title I chose to call Him as a Dom, of course you might see me refer to Him as other titles in my writings. While the name seems to give off bad connotations, I assure you that it's not as bad as it sounds.

In the world of D/s relationships, Doms and subs have different titles, sometimes depending on the dynamic. While most people are familiar with Master/slave, there is a gentler dynamic and that is DD/g. DD/lg stands for Daddy Dom and little girl. Do not be fooled by the name though, it is not gender specific, there are Mommies and little boys as well.

The role of a Daddy is much like any other Dom, to help His sub grow and care for her but he does hold some special roles too. Daddies play more of a parental role; their goals are to guide, protect, nuture, and love their little. They will spoil their little by tending to her inner child. Each Daddy is as special and different as His little girl, some are sadistic or treat their little slightly differently than what’s mentioned. That’s okay too. It is a common misconception that littles have “daddy issues”. While a Daddy is known for His parental role, He does not take the role of a true father figure that is in His sub’s life.

In the dynamic ageplay may or may not be involved. Non-ageplay littles tend to share a relationship with their Daddy that is full of TLC (and what’s mentioned above) to feed the inner child, though the sub does not act out as a child. In ageplay the little actually does take on a little persona and will roleplay as if she were that age. It can range anywhere from simply wanting to look slightly younger, like a cute dress and pig tails, to wanting a pacifier and coloring books. Each little is different and has her own interests. From there the Daddy takes on His role and acts accordingly, depending on the age, she may need more structure, guidance, and attention than others. It is not uncommon for a Daddy to establish rules to teach His little girl and keep her in line.

Please note that the DD/lg dynamic has nothing to do with pedophilia. We do not condone the acts of pedophilia and the exploitation of children in any way. Just as adults like to take on other roles in the bedroom such as nurse, pet, porn star, etc. it is all roleplay; that is the same for ageplay. The DD/lg dynamic is like any other aspect of BDSM - it is safe, sane, and consensual. Those who participate in the dynamic should be not be shamed for doing so.

30 Days of Ageplay: Day 4

Do you have interests that may be older or younger than the age that you identify with?

It turns out that this is actually day 3's question and that I had accidentally answer day 4, so that explains the question switcharoo.

I think my most obvious interest that doesn't match my "little age" would be pacifiers. Nothing else about being an adult baby calls mine or Daddy's attention but there's about pacifiers that's cute. I could definitely see myself using one for the sake of comfort and even satisfying my oral fixation.

Friday, August 30, 2013

Dance For Me, My Slave

Daddy came home from another long day at work. He slumped in His chair and relaxed, looking around wondering why I hadn’t greeted Him at the door like I normally do. He was just about to call my name when her heard distant chimes coming in His direction. I walked into the room, adorned in a pink, sheer skirt that flowed with my movements, and silver anklets with little bells on it. When I reached His chair, I bowed for Him; kneeling down but with my torso lowered to the ground, my head tilted inward, and my palms facing downward against the floor. He grinned at me and reached down to place His hand on my head to gently pet it, speaking calming, “That’s a good little slave. You may rise.”

I sat up for Him slowly, it’s always done a particular way: my torso rises up first and my arms are pulled inward until I am kneeling completely upright and my hands are resting on my knees. I looked up at Him and smiled, “I have a little dance for you, My Lord.” He seemed to be intrigued by this because He looked at me with an eyebrow cocked up.

I had the tune playing in my head over and over, I was ready to show what I had learnt in my dance class. I had been been in the class for quite sometime but this would be the first time he would see the progress. I took a few steps back and slowly lifted my arms upward from the side of my body until my middle fingers almost touched each other and then brought them back down about shoulder length. I began to slowly move my hips, gradually making the movements more noticeable. I switched from the sensual, flowing move of my hips to more abrupt movements; pushing one side of my hip up and then rocking the other side. My arms moved with the rhythm of my hips, swaying up and down and as my hands would turn. 

Every so often I would glance at Him and smile, I could see the hunger growing in His eyes. I continued rocking my hips but pushed a foot out, pressing my weight on it and with each up-movement of my hips, my body turned. I placed my hands on my hips and did a quick shimmy, showing off my cute bum as the fabric moved with it. I turned back at Him and smiled and saw Him reach out to touch me but I wasn't in arm's length which made me smirk.

It wasn't hard to tell that Daddy was getting frustrated but it wasn't like Him to announce His need, it was more of His style to take what He wanted. He pulled His arm back but began to undo His pants, making sure that I was watching. I could see the bulge pushing against the fabric, I couldn't help but lick my lips. I resisted though, just enough to finish my dance and bow for Him. It was at that moment that I walked over to His chair and my collar was grabbed by the O-ring. He freed His cock and muttered through clenched teeth, "Look what you've done..."

The Power of the Submissive

While with some friends a few days ago, I was told that my rules make it seem like my Daddy is a control freak and that it seems that I'm not capable of controlling my life. I was slightly offended and I feel that a lot of people who don't understand D/s probably think this, but at the same time I can't blame them because they just don't understand and they admitted this. Maybe they don't understand the appeal of power exchange and that it's forced on by the Dom. Who knows. I just want to elaborate on this and speak from my experience.

 I think a common misconception is that being submissive is seen as being a slave and that all rights are gone. Slaves are known for their total power exchange and that includes losing the ability to speak up for themselves. Not every submissive is a slave but I digress...

As a submissive, I have a lot more power than one might think. I may not be the one in constant control but if it weren't for me and my decisions, my Daddy would not own me and or anything. I decide with my Daddy what rules I want in place for me. Most rules are set for my safety, my well-being, or it's something we both agreed on due to a common interest. But I have every right to disagree on a rule he suggests or question why such a rule needs to be in place. I can ask for a rule to be changed or come with a compromise. I also decide how deep I want to submit; hell, I even get to say if this person is worth owning such a precious gift in the first place. I personally wouldn't mind a total power exchange at some point but for now, I am happy with how it is.

It takes a lot of trust to submit and to even do a power exchange in the relationship. Power exchanges are a sliding scale; how far the exchange is taken all depends on the couple. The sub has to be willing to give up however much power, it's not the Dom's decision. They can't say, "I want you to give up all your power and submit to me fully." That's a dickmove and enough of a reason for the sub to run to the hills. The sub's comfort should be the main concern of the Dom, and that means letting her decide when she feels ready to take things a step further.

Being a submissive does not mean you are powerless, it's actually just the opposite.

Rape Fantsies Do Not Minimize Real Rape

Thursday, August 29, 2013

30 Day of Ageplay: Day 3

Is your baby/little/middle side different from your big self? To elaborate, do you go by a different name, is your personality different, etc?

My litte side actually has two parts to it. They are not different personalities of mine or headmates, more like different sides of me. Both are similar to me but have some notable traits or ones that are more prominent. I don't go by different names but Daddy does have nicknames for me when I switch into the mind set of one or the other: princess and little brat. When I refer to either of them as "her", I am talking about myself and am not treating this like a separate persona.

Princess tends to be innocent and sweeter but on occasions she can be playfully haughty. She's a real Daddy's girl. She likes to believe that she is a real princess and Daddy spoils her. She enjoys being picked up and spun around or sitting in Daddy's lap and being covered in kisses.

Little Brat is a not really a brat, but the nickname was given because how much of a tease she is. She is much more direct about her needs and wants and has no qualms about it. Think in terms of Kokonoe Rin from Kodomo no Jikan. Like her opposite, Princess, she loves to play dress-up but prefers sexier outfits than the whimsical, girly ones. Despite being more of a nymphet, she loves loving-moments with her Daddy.

My Rules

Current rules:
  • No disrespecting Daddy. Acting disrespectful will get me ignored until I am sorry and say so or until Daddy feels ready to speak to me again.
  • If I am commanded to do something, I am to do so.
  • If I am asked of something that I don’t feel comfortable doing I am to speak up and he will find a compromise.
  • I’m not allowed to hide things from Daddy.
  • I’m not allowed to play with myself without asking permission from Daddy first.
  • Any rule I break I am to let Daddy know.
  • I am to learn better self control over my mood swings and anger and think before I speak.
  • Take my punishments like a good girl. Punishments are for me to realize I’ve done something wrong and to learn from.
  • I’m also not allowed to put myself down in any way, I think that goes with the disrespect rule though.
  • I am to always do my best. Striving for perfection is silly but striving to the best I can for Daddy is what he asks of me.
  • Acknowledge my health and take better care of myself.
  • There will inspections after sleepovers.*
  • I am not allowed to be touched sexually by others without Daddy's approval first.**
  • If a rule seems unclear to me, I am to ask for elaboration. No more making assumptions.***
For the future (when we’re together):
  • Before I wear an outfit, I am to get Daddy’s approval on it first (Or Daddy may just decide to choose an outfit for me and I am to wear it).
  • Always be ready for Daddy’s use. Inspections will be put in place and I am to comply.
  • Regardless of where we are or circumstances, if Daddy asks me to hand over my panties, I am to do so at that moment without hesitation.
  • Bedtimes may be enforced… (I think it’s a form of punishment but I’m sure that my terrible sleeping habit will get me a bedtime. Either way, he’s mentioned this several times before.)
  • If Daddy wants privacy and is in his study, I am to respect his privacy and let him be.
Rules may be added on as needed by Daddy.

*[2/17/2013 12:34 AM] Daddy: Perhaps I should make it customary to inspect you whenever you return home from hanging out with someone.
Not that I don’t trust you, but knowing you, you’d enjoy proving that you’ve been a good girl, wouldn’t you.
[2/17/2013 12:36 AM] Daddy: Very well. In that case, whenever you return home, you are to remove your panties and come to me for an inspection before doing anything else.
Actually, not just your panties. You should come nude so I can inspect your whole body if I so wish.
If your body has been tarnished somehow (say, you’ve been out in a club and some asshole felt you up, like it’s happened before), it’s during those inspections that you should tell me, so I can cleanse it.

Most Recent Rules:
**Daddy: Only people I approved in advance get to touch you. And yes, that's a rule.
Everyone else counts as filthy. If the touch was inadvertent, I will cleanse your body. If you subjected yourself to it, you will wait until it wears off (that is, until I can touch you without thinking of it anymore).

***Daddy: Which reminds me, from now on, when you feel the slightest bit uncertain about something, you are to ask for instructions.

Saturday, August 24, 2013

30 Days of Ageplay: Day 2

Are you an adult baby, little, or middle? What age do you identify as?

I identify as a "little". My regression age is around 10, but sometimes it does sink a bit lower. Actually now that I think about it, most 10 year olds nowadays don't even act as I do when I'm in little space. I'm most comfortable with that age so I stick to it but I don't let it restrict me. I do have an oral fixation and have expressed that I want a paci and I love sippy cups (that's never changed), but that's as close to being a young little that I'll ever be.

Friday, August 23, 2013

“How do I find Daddy?”

A guide to help you safely find the Daddy you’re looking for.

It’s a commonly-asked question and I've answered it several times but I felt this time making a more thorough response through a post would be more helpful. First off I’d like to say that I found my Daddy in the most unexpected way, by chance of two people with similar interests just happening to come across each other. I found my Daddy on Tumblr long before I was even aware of the DD/lg. But enough about me, this is a helpful guide anyways.

Where do I find a Daddy?
I think this question is a lot simpler than most people make it out to be. How do you meet anyone in the vanilla world? Most of the time you come across someone who interests you and you begin talking to them right? Well it’s the same for the BDSM community except there’s more to it (I’ll explain why in a bit). My first suggestion is through Fetlife or Tumblr. That’s right, I mentioned Tumblr because there is a large group of available Daddies on here who probably have a Fet too that you can get to know. Fetlife is easier though since there’s profiles involved and anyone looking for a serious relationship has a decent profile talking about their self, their experience, their interest, and what they’re looking for. Or maybe join a local group on Fetlife that does munches, it’s a great way to make friends and meet people (if you’re into social events revolving around the BDSM community), you might even be lucky and find someone who could potentially be the man you’re looking for.

How do I find the right Daddy? How do I know he’s serious about taking on this type of relationship?
So you’ve been looking around on Fetlife and maybe you’ve come across a single Daddy and his profile interests you so you decide to message him. The most important thing to keep in mind is to not rush it. If you try hopping straight into a relationship (of any kind) you’re going to make yourself look desperate and in the D/s world desperate subs are usually turned away from because it gives the impression they’re not serious. Talk to the Daddy you’re interested in; introduce yourself and say hi, and let him know you’d like to get to know Him better. This should be just like how you’d get no anyone first off, you don’t call someone you just a met a friend, do you? If He responds and asks you tell a bit about yourself then feel free to do so. And then see where your conversations go on from there.  I personally believe the best relationships form from friendships. Remember that the best things in life come when you least except it and aren’t looking and sometimes love is one of those things.

Things are going well and we’ve been talking for a while. He wants to meet in person, what should I do?
First off make sure that you feel comfortable with meeting in person. Do you feel you’ve got to know Him enough that you’d feel comfortable aroud Him in person? If you feel ready, congratulations! My suggestion is meeting in a public place first, maybe meet up with Him for coffee or maybe even attend a local Fetlife group munchie with Him. This ensures your safety and if you’re in a group, more conversations are bound to arise that will let you see just what type of person He is.

If right off the bat on that first meet he invites you to his place, trust your gut. If you feel comfortable enough and feel you can stand your ground (just in case) then go ahead. Set your boundaries and be sure that He is aware of them and respects them. If not then that’s your queue to leave and find someone else who is willing to respect you.

Things to look out for.
Fetlife is notorious for faux Doms and treating the site like it’s a flea market for finding Doms and subs. It’s your job to trust your instinct, guts, and make good judgement based on how the person acts around you and around others.
  • The Daddy who insists that you call him Daddy right off the bat. No. Daddy is title that is earned. Respect is earned. If he demands it this is your cue to either stand up for yourself or to turn away.
  • The sweet talker. Let me elaborate. There’s a boundary between friendly and too friendly. Some Doms will be over friendly to try and win you over and make you swoon over him. They’ll try to act like some God-send hero. Tread with caution around guys like these. Without even getting to know you they will say things like, “Sweet little girl, do not apologize to Me for anything; you are the one who needs to be held and stroked and loved so if there is some small semblance of a smile that I can possibly put on your face then I am delighted to do so.” And yes, I actually did get a message like that before.
  • The hoarder. Polyamory is fine and can be wonderful but there’s a difference between genuine polyamorous and hoarding. Hoarding tends to be when a Dom who keeps a ton of girls more than likely for his own benefit either for physical pleasure and maybe even an ego boost. More than likely having a number of devoted subs to him makes him feel more powerful and chances are, you won't even know about these subs.
  • The married man living, or trying to live, two lives. It’s shame that this even happens but it does. Sometimes kinky men are stuck in vanilla relationships and will come to Fetlife to find kinky girls. While they may not do it on purpose, they lead on the subs into thinking that the relationship is serious and going anywhere when in fact they’re married and keeping this a secret from you and the wife. This situation usually ends badly when the wife founds out. Guess who’s dropped in the end? You.

30 Days of Ageplay: Day 1

Define what ageplay is to you. How do you or would you incorporate it into your relationship?

To me, ageplay is giving into my true self. It’s not an act. It’s not a game. It’s not just a sexual fetish. It’s the chance for me to let my inner child out and be myself without fear of being judged. It’s a way for me to let go of my worries and stress for a bit and be able to enjoy the smaller things in life; the things that made me smile years ago.

When Daddy and I first established a DD/lg dynamic, I denied being an ageplayer. I think shame was a part of it, but another reason was because I had a misconception that it’s acting younger. Normally I act younger than my real age and have interests and urges that are younger too. I had stated from the beginning that I feel that I never grew out of being 13 years old. That’s not to say that I can’t be a mature adult when I need to be. As I went on in the dynamic, I found myself actually regressing and into a younger state of mind than what I classified myself as in the beginning. My current regression age is 10 but even then, sometimes I want a pacifer and I realize that caters to a much younger age range that I don’t regress to or personally identify with.

In my relationship, I am treated like a little girl unless I ask not to be. I am given the extra love and attention needed as well as lessons to help me grow and guide me through life. When I am little and with Daddy, I feel that I have double the love because I am loved as a girlfriend but also as a little girl Aside from that, Daddy and I have discussed going out together for ice cream, taking me to parks, etc. Sometimes we do roleplay our parts and it does involve incest play, but there’s no harm in that.